I am having a “day.” I totally turned the phone off when I reset the alarm this morning and had to load two little kids into car seats at warp speed to drive the 7 year old to school (made it on time). Then I decided we were going to make a great day out of a really rocky start, I made it into the shower, got my hair dried and walked right into a massive fight with my husband. TO top off this fight, which was not at all about his friend, he mentions how his friend agreed with him after he (the husband) told him something I said this weekend. When he repeated what it was, I didn’t know whether to burst out laughing or just burst into tears of total frustration. Not only was this little nugget he told his friend a conversation he had NO RIGHT TO REPEAT, it was an incredibly personal discussion I had about something important to me and my marriage and he threw it right into the gossip mill. To top THAT part of it off, he retold it WRONG. It has become blatantly obvious to me that he literally hears every 5-10th word I say and NOTHING in between. As angry as I was, I nearly burst into laughter, he got it so wrong. And, I would have laughed if I had also not been SHOCKED about a. his repeating my feelings and thoughts to someone with no need to have that information, totally feel betrayed and b. that he frickin got it WRONG.
Next was the trip to the grocery store, which was a cluster due to the fact that I was totally distracted. Kept forgetting things and having to go back.
Now, the cool thing is in each of these tricky situations today, something good has happened. Got the kid to school on time and was able to deliver school supplies for the class at the same time, an errand I would have had to do later in the day, so I killed two birds with one stone. In the argument thing with my husband, I now have a very clear understanding of who I can talk to and who I can’t. I totally get the problems we have had, and they are all based in some sense on communication. ANY wonder why???? Then, the girl at the grocery store chased me down so I ddin’t forget the kids lunch meat. So, in all of the day, there have been huge gifts:)

Now, I am going back to my original intention for the day, an intention I set last night. It is time for some things to change around here (so to speak), and I am basing the changes on this quote, a manta, really:

“Watch your thought, for they become words.”
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

And, now I have “Turn the Beat Around” stuck in my head. I hope we all have a great day!

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